... when the time for you to depart a place where youve made memories. you have schedules to set up to meet that certain person for the very last time before you set sail to the other side of the world. i remember when i first went to purdue. it was so damn hard to leave my two best friends behind. one is alive right now and the other is in heaven.....actually that was pretty much the last time i really got to talk to him. Then I adapted to purdue...made new relations there...so by the time i had to leave for the army..ive made so many more relations that meant alot to me that it was so hard leaving the states. Ok..so I am back in Korea....make new relations with different people and get close to them.. and now i have to fukin go again... I realize that shiet is getting repetative...and i c how this cycle works....and this also is hard for me because when i make relations..i make it deep....sometimes failing to live up to their expectations of me as a friend to them. i have so many..that i cant keep trach of em all..and i guess i do become a little careless on each individual. but somehow i have managed to keep up with alot of the relations that i have formed so far but really one day im sure its gonna be too much for me to handle..not to mention that i dun have time for myself.... this era of my life is really crutial to me and sometimes i do wonder that maybe focusing on only one thing which is me would be wiser for me..and better for me and my friends futures...if i can help myself then how da fuk am i gonna help other people..nah mean?? well jus had a thought today..random thought... pz. | 